Is it alright if my new years resolution for 2013 is just to survive? I didn't make one for 2012 - until sometime in February while making Ana's stocking that I had really wanted to have finished for the Christmas prior I vowed to be better at finishing what I start. This brought about remodeling adventures and an entire pinterest board dedicated to things from pinterest that I have completed. (I want to be a -real- pinner, not just an idealistic one!)
But as I'm starting to think about 2013 I'd like to just get through it without fighting with my husband too much or losing my patience with my children while we tackle a newborn with feeding issues/baby surgeries and I have to keep up my milk supply soley through pumping. Those things weigh heavily on me these days. I am really, really nervous about Ben's bottles. Especially those middle of the night ones. Especially because I have two other children and one of them is still a pretty dependent wee one. Especially because my husband does not operate well on lack of sleep so I need him to sleep at night so he can feel good during the day. (ps - I just found out that I will likely be having this baby the week of Daylight Savings Time - because we thought that we'd up our chances for success by starting our bout with sleep depreivation at a time when society tells us to turn our clocks forward and lose an hour of perfectly good life.) It'll work out. I'm sure of it - and by 2014 I'll be laughing about it. But that means I will have had to survive 2013, which is basically just my ultimate goal. I don't even want to -thrive- since I feel like that could be an unrealistic expectation - I just want to survive! ha.
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| 31ish weeks |
Omg. I'm huge. (I am allowed to say this about myself. You are not allowed to say this about me.)
Matt recently said that since for a great portion of our marriage I've been pregnant, he is more used to seeing me looking big than not. He said he was looking through Ana's scrapbook and when he saw the picture of me right when we found out he said I looked so tiny and he forgot how skinny I am when I'm not pregnant, since I'm hardly ever not pregnant! Oh, brother (literally!).
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Mandy, thanks for commenting on the blog. To know that our story has encouraged even one person makes it totally worth it! I have loved reading your blog! I think we'd be great friends :). I know I'm just a few steps ahead of you in the process, but would love to answer any questions/listen to any concerns, etc just email me!! (musgroveam@gmail.com). I will definitely be praying for you over the next few months and that sweet baby Ben.
Love, Anne Marie
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